“you keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun”

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Awesome. Yeah I said I wasn't going to post anymore, but everything looks so empty and I feel so empty...and yet so full of emotion at the same time.


Last night I went to bed extremely annoyed with everything and everyone, and on top of that I had a splitting headache and my eyes were burning even when I closed them to go to sleep. I told myself that I wasn't going to school because (to be honest) I didn't want to speak to anyone. I wanted to give myself a break and spend sometime by myself to clear my thoughts and establish where my feelings are. So when I woke up my headache had transformed into a migraine and I felt incredibly nauseous. (When I look back, I struggle to decide whether it was mostly due to the migraine or...my decision to not see anyone). But when I told Mum that I felt sick and was going to stay home, she told me to go to school because it is important and blah blah blah. So I went. Stupid idiot. And then I threw up at the bus stop. In front of people. It was humiliating and embarrassing and I burst into tears. So I ran back home straight away, not caring the look my mother gave me, and I collapsed onto my bed and sobbed until I fell asleep.
I woke up because my phone was ringing, so I answered it, and I am not going to post about that conversation---
So basically my day was full of crying and thinking about my life. It was great fun. I don't feel like I'm about to throw up anymore, but my headache is still there and all I want to do is sit and cry. And yes I want to talk to someone so bad that I want to stay awake to see whether anyone will speak to me. I've attempted to do some work in order to distract myself from the 'reality of my situation'. But even that has it's limitations.


This week as been awful. Sorry for being so vague about what I'm feeling. I just don't want you to know.

I've decided I dislike blogger/blogspot :)
Sooo
(if you're still interested in reading stuff about my life/me)
check out -parchment for my new blogging/journal stuff

:D
thank you guys.
(who knows, i might end up using this again...so I guess don't unfollow me?)
xxx

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MY LIFE IS COMPLETE.

I AM ON A MASSIVE HORCRUX HIGH
(not posting spoilers)

But you should watch this: [click]

and this: [click]

AS WELL AS THIS: [click]

I love Harry Potter.

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MIGHT POSSIBLY AM GOING TO SEE HARRY POTTER TOMORROW
with old best friend Beth from Central Coast :)

And then I will *fingers crossed* hopefully see it with Lia next weekend :)
cause I really want to see it with Lia because WE LOVE THE DEATH EATERS SO MUCHLY ;D

...and Beth thinks Bellatrix is a lunatic ):

AHHHHH. SO EXCITED THOUGH. *squeeee*
Everyone who has seen it says it's AWESOME. WEEEEEE!~~

Okay, I'll shut up now.
But OMG OMG.

HP PICTURE SPAM! --->

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English exam is over! :D
it wasn't TOO bad... Hmmm... should've fixed a few things. But whatever, it's behind me now ~

This afternoon was funny though hahaha.
Caught the train with Sunny, Suvarna, Vin and Elena after extension 2 English. We ate chips :D
We were talking about sexual fantasties between Kwan and Vin (i.e. Valjean and Javert) HAHAHA. It was pretty hilarious :)
"Vin, you're more assertive, hence you would be the one to make all the noise." ;D
And then Suvarna said how she's putting some Mountain thing on her jersey, and then I didn't know what the mountain was. But they didn't believe me, so the lady next to Vin had to tell me that it was a volcano "that is bound to erupt at any momeny" HAHAHA GG SUVI :D
She's about to erupt, guys! BACK AWAY =S

Anyhow,
I took the puppy back to her owners' when I got home. They live on the next street (hahaha) and seemed pretty grateful that I brought her back.
But it was funny, cause when I rocked up, no one was answering the front door. I heard the shower running, so I waited there for a bit. And then I got sick of it so I walked up and down the street, like, five times >< I went on facebook mobile. And then I went back and the owner was out of the shower xDDD
He opened the door, shirtless, and OMG HOT (: such a babe.
"We've been missing her" *sadface*
NAWWWW -hug- -hug- you're so cute, handsome man.

So the funeral was today.
I cried.
Everyone loved the eulogy, though.
But yeah...
I'm so not in the mood to blog.

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Okay, a little puppy came wandering off the street and trotted slowly down our front path. Hmmmm.. hello there, young one?
Turns out it is severly malnourished and needs tender love and care. So we brought it in, fed it, watered it, bathed it and...introduced it to Molly D:
I named her Nugget.
Stepdad is going to call the RSPCA tomorrow, but, if she isn't microchipped, then we're going to keep her because he doesn't want her to be put down (which they will do).
THIS IS NOT GOING TO GO WELL WITH THE OTHER DOG :O
anyway...

Today me and a few other lunatics went to the Powerhouse Museum/Harbourside.
The museum visit was short - we got in and got out - but I managed to take almost 100 photos of things that caught my eye :)
I found it hard to find inspiration for my children-related idea for my short story, but I did what I can, letting myself slip away from the others and into the children's corner of the museum for a short while.
After we got out, we trekked to Harbourside to get lunch :D we were all so freaking hungry... Suvi wouldn't shut up about the crispy chicken caesar salad waiting for her... :P
Lunch was eating, including a large Diet Coke. But then they wanted ice cream D: NO MONEY! So I went without :) good job, bb.
We kind of sat stoner for a while after that. A moth came and sat on our table. I nudged it away. Suvi screamed, cause she thought it was dead.
After that, I basically trekked with Fio back to Town Hall station to gtfo of the city.
It was so hot today -__- but i love summer! So I'm not complaining, really xD <3

I didn't really talk much today. Too ceebs. Still upset about my feelings of yesterday -sigh-
Finished writing the eulogy yesterday. Funeral is on Tuesday.
Wish me luck!

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