“you keep me wide awake and waiting for the sun”

September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 March 2011

Confirmation: it's my fault. And even though I'll never forget that, I'm going to just let it go and move on.
It's what I need to do to get out of this labyrinth. I can't just stop and tread water in my own tears - I need to keep going. Because I feel powerless and weak right here, and even if the dragons and beasts lie ahead, I've always got my sword and my fairy godmothers to guide me.
I thank all of you who have made my year significantly more bearable. I am forever in your debt. And for those of you who have made my year significantly unbearable, I'm sure you had your reasons.


I find two of my friends run in a cycle. For example, when I get shitty at one of them, I talk to the other one and visa versa. It's like I can't have both of them at the same time. Which is actually really infuriating because I love them both.


Honestly, I think the most productive thing I did yesterday was manage to cover my spring roll in sweet chilli sauce without having to double dip.
Well, I guess bio was reasonably good. We watched a movie about meiosis, and Elena asked Mr. Simpson if it was possible to get a female egg, and put some more female chromosomes inside to create a child. He said it was possible. But with the double X's, you could only make a girl, not a boy.
In SAC, I showed Sarah the literal Harry Potter trailer, and researched briefly for my PIP. I hate using computer rooms. Honestly.
I was texting and falling asleep in Maths, but Mr. Terry didn't seem to notice .__. I almost ran out of that God forsaken place and then got chips with Sarah :) omnomnom.


I am sorry to those people who witnessed my rants and vents last night. I was just utterly overwhelmed, and didn't really think about your feelings. That will never happen again..


Today, I am going to help move some furniture around and make my sorry ass do some work.